When this began

I had nothing to say

And Id get lost in the nothingness inside of me

I was confused

And Id let it all out to find

That im not the only person with these things in mind

Inside of me

When all the vacancy the words revealed

Is the only real thing that Ive got left to feel

Nothing to loose

Just stuck, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long

Erase all the pain till its gone

I wanna heal I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

And Ive got nothing to say

I cant believe I didnt fall right down on my face

I was confused

Looking everwhere only to find

That its not the way I had imagined it all in my mind

So what am I

What do I have but negativity

Cause I cant justify the way everyone is looking at me

Nothing to loose

Nothing to gain, hollow and alone

And the fault is my own and the fault is my own

I wanna heal I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I wanna let go of the pain I felt so long

Erase all the pain till its gone

I wanna heal I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I will never know

Myself until I do this on my own

And I will never feel

Anything else, until my wounds are healed

I will never be anything

Until I break away from me

I will break away

I'll find myself today

I wanna heal I wanna feel

What I thought was never real

I want to let go of the pain I felt so long

Erase all the pain till its gone

I wanna heal I wanna feel

Like Im close to something real

I wanna find something Ive wanted all along

Somewhere I belong

I wanna heal I wanna feel I wanna feel like Im

somewhere I belong

I wanna heal I wanna feel I wanna feel like Im

somewhere I belong

Somewhere I belong

Memories consume

Like opening the wound

I'm picking me apart again

You all assume

I'm safe here in my room

[Unless I try to start again]

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I know it's not alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

Clutching my cure

I tightly lock the door

I try to catch my breath again

I hurt much more

Than anytime before

I had no options left again

I don't want to be the one

The battles always choose

'Cause inside I realize

That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

I don't know why I instigate

And say what I don't mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

I'll paint it on the walls

'Cause I'm the one at fault

I'll never fight again

And this is how it ends

I don't know what's worth fighting for

Or why I have to scream

But now I have some clarity

To show you what I mean

I don't know how I got this way

I'll never be alright

So I'm

Breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

I'm breaking the habit

Tonight

Yeah... Yeah...

This is not the end

This is not the beginning

Just a voice like a riot

Rocking every revision

But you listen to the tone

And the violent rhythm

Though the words sound steady

Something emptys whithin em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air

Like we're holding onto something thats invisible there

Cuz we're living at the mercy

Of the pain of the fear

Until we dead it

Forget it

Let it all disappear

Waiting for the end to come

Wishing I had strength to stand

This is not what I had planned

It's out of my control

Flying at the speed of light

Thoughts were spinning in my head

So many things were left unsaid

It's hard to let you go

I know what it takes to move on

I know how it feels to lie

All I wanna do

Is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got

Sitting in an empty room

Trying to forget the past

This was never meant to last

I wishing it wasn't so...

I know what it takes to move on

I know how it feels to lie

All I wanna do

Is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got (yeah, yeah)

What was left

When that fire was gone

I thought it felt right

But that right was wrong

All caught up in the eye of the storm

And trying to figure out

What it's like moving on

And I don't even know

What kind of thing I said

My mouth kept moving

And my mind went dead

Picking up the pieces

Now where to begin

The hardest part of the ending

Is starding again

All I wanna do

Is trade this life for something new

Holding on to what I haven't got

This is not the end

This is not the beginning

Just a voice like a riot

Rocking every revision

But you listen to the tone

(Holding on to what I haven't got)

And the violent rhythm

Though the words sound steady

Something emptys whithin em

We say yeah

With fists flying up in the air

Like we're holding onto something thats invisible there

Cuz we're living at the mercy

(Holding on to what I haven't got)

Of the pain of the fear

Until we dead it

Forget it

Let it all disappear

It starts with [one]

One thing, I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind i designed

this rhyme to explain in due time

All I know

Time is a valuable thing

Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings

Watch it count down to the end of the day

The clock ticks life away

It's so unreal

Didn't look out below

Watch the time go right out the window

Trying to hold on, didn't even know

I wasted it all just to watch you go

I kept everythin inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually be a

memory of a time when i [tried so hard]

Tried so hard and got so far

But in the end, it doesn't even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end it doesn't even matter

One thing, I don't know why

It doesn't even matter how hard you try

Keep that in mind i designed this rhyme

to remind myself how (I tried so hard)

I tried so hard

In spite of the way you were mocking me

Acting like I was part of your property

Remembering all the times you fought with me

I'm surprised it got so [far]

Things aren’t the way they were before

You wouldn’t even recognize me anymore

Not that you knew me back then

But it all comes back to me in the end

I kept everything inside

And even though I tried

It all fell apart

What it meant to me will eventually be a

memory of a time when I [tried so hard]

Tried so hard and got so far

But in the end, it doesn’t even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end it doesn’t even matter

I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There’s only one thing you should know

I put my trust in you

Pushed as far as I can go

For all this

There’s only one thing you should know

I tried so hard and got so far

But in the end, it doesn’t even matter

I had to fall to lose it all

But in the end it doesn’t even matter

I remembered black skies / the lightning all around me

I remembered each flash / as time began to blur

Like a startling sign / that fate had finally found me

And your voice was all I heard

That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean

Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes

Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between

Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies

Across this new divide

There was nothing in sight / but memories left abandoned

There was nowhere to hide / the ashes fell like snow

And the ground caved in / between where we were standing

And your voice was all I heard

That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean

Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes

Across this new divide

In every loss / in every lie

In every truth that you'd deny

And each regret / and each goodbye

was a mistake to great to hide

And your voice was all I heard

That I get what I deserve

So give me reason / to prove me wrong / to wash this memory clean

Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes

Give me reason / to fill this hole / connect the space between

Let it be enough to reach the truth that lies

Across this new divide

Across this new divide

I'm tired of being what

you want me to be

feeling so faithless,

lost under the surface

I don't know what

you're expecting of me

put under the pressure

of walking in your shoes...

caught in the undertow,

just caught in the undertow...

Every step that I take is

another mistake to you...

caught in the undertow,

just caught in the undertow...

I've become so numb,

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired,

so much more aware

by becoming this

all i want to do

is be more like me

and be less like you

Can't you see that

you're,smothering me?

holding too tightly,

afraid to lose control

cuz everything that

you thought I would be

has fallen apart

right in front of you...

caught in the undertow,

just caught in the undertow...

every step that i take

is another mistake to you...

caught in the undertow,

just caught in the undertow...

And every second i waste is more than I can take!

I've become so numb,

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired,

so much more aware

by becoming this all i want to do

is be more like me

and be less like you

And I know I may end the failing too

but i know you were just like me

with someone disappointed in you...

I've become so numb,

I can't feel you there

I've become so tired,

so much more aware

by becoming this all I want to do

is be more like me

and be less like you

I've become so numb,

I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being what you want me...

I've become so numb,

I can't feel you there

I'm tired of being

what you want me...